I’ve never felt like this.
Awake, unrelenting bashes of insecurity while blank eyes staring at an even blanker computer screen, dangerously warm from its 16 hour usage to cure pure loneliness or rather just disgusting presence of the pure feeling of having nothing to do or no one to talk to.
Probably the inability to reconnect, rediscover or recoup the damage that has been done or maybe even manifesting itself in ways that one could not see. What is the worst kind, you ask? Having the company but still feeling bastardizing alone in all ways imaginable. Its like mocking you right in the face.
Maybe the ability to be so scared to make mistakes that it might jeopardize the whole circumstance in its entirety.
